Lifes ups and downs as of late...

Ok, where to begin... It has been a year since I have posted on here and for that I’m sorry... Time and life have gotten away from me in many ways!! Jackson is 18 months old now!! He is HUGE!! Now in the 67% for his weight and 70% for height!! He is super healthy, a picky eater, a wonderful funny little boy!! He runs around the house like he’s on a mission. He loves to help everyone do anything!! Sesame Street and Elmo as well as Tigger are some of his favorite things in the world!! He is starting to potty train, HURAY!! I LOVE it so much!! He is a total Mama’s boy and his daddy, despite everything that is going on, is one of his favorite playmates.

I took Jackson out to play last week after the rain. He found the puddles and mud! He was a yucky mess, but I don’t think I’ve seen my little explorer have more fun, ever! He saw his first frog and wasn’t sure what to think!! I tried to catch it, but it got away before I could. He is growing up so fast and changing so much I just can’t believe it!! He is so smart and follows directions so well I’m just amazed!! He isn’t talking as much as he probably should, but we aren’t too concerned yet because he has started to talk a lot more lately!!

As for me, my life has been insane!! Not only am I a single mommy now, (Frank and I have split up) but my grandmother passed away on March 14, 2010. Everything has been tough and a real struggle. I try as hard as I can to find happiness in Jackson and my family, but with all the sadness of the loss of my Grammy, and the failure of a 2 1/2 year relationship, as well as knowing that Frank and I will never be friends again, let alone a couple. I’m saddened by how untrustworthy he has become and the lengths his family has gone to to sabotage us. It hurts that so many people that know nothing about me other then what they have heard from unreliable sources would work so hard to destroy a family. News flash your grandson/ great nephew is the one that loses out the most. I’ve since moved home to mom and dad’s with Jack. We are staying in my old bedroom and getting by. I haven’t had a vehicle for about a month now, and boy is it tough. You never realize just how much you use a car until it is gone. I don’t do all that much driving, but when you need to run errands and can’t because you have no vehicle its tough to make arraignments in order to have one. So thank goodness I just got a check from my secondary insurance company for when I had my surgery, because now I’ll be able to afford to pay off some bills and put a down payment on a new-used car!!

So I guess life isn’t totally awful!! I have the greatest blessing from a huge tragedy!! I’m very thankful for the support of my family and the love and understanding they have shown Jackson and I during this turbulent time. Thank you all my friends and family for helping us through this tough time. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate just being able to vent a little and hear you say that everything will be ok, or that I am making the right choices. We love you all and thanks again!!

Brittany and Jackson